Day Thirty

well better late than never a last post.

i am proud of what i accomplished in those 30 days. it was hard physically and mentally to continue to push myself to wake up on time, attend, push-push-push-more-more-more, and balance.

and that's what i want to do now....balance.

i loved what i experience in yoga but i hated missing sleep and time with my dog and creative free time and sleep. i think i was more emotionally unstable during that month than i have been in a while, granted there were outside personal things that played in for sure.

the next 5 weeks i am going to attend 3-4 times a week...which is more than suzy hotrod and her tuesdays of bikram. ;) i am going to work on balancing my meals, my mental wellness, and my heart.

those are hefty things to balance especially the last but i think i'm worth it...yeah, i'm worth it. at least i hope to say that with more confidence in 5 weeks.

Day Twenty-seven, Twenty-eight, and Twenty-nine.

geez time flies.

yesterday i had a moment after practice where i almost talked myself out of not finishing this 30 days in a row of yoga challenge. my legs were stiff and fatigued. i couldn't jam to save my life. i felt out of shape and tired and the only thing i could think of was the fact that i had just done yoga prior to getting to practice. i can't afford going into this weekend being stiff and fatigued. i need to be at my best.

this is when i doubt....

does this really make me stronger if i feel weaker? does this really work?

ultimately i think it does. i've experienced ups and downs during this whole month. some days i am strong and limber and feel it from head to toe all day...even into practice. some days i am a ball of tension unable to move my legs or back or neck to save my life. those are the days i have to be mentally strong and keep pushing myself. knowing the good outweighs the bad.

i have experienced drastic lack of sleep doing this. my goal in october is to find the balance.

how do i balance yoga, sleep, derby, and my dog....oh yeah and my life outside those things (does that exist anymore?)?

october is my birthday month. i am a libra. i claim it as a month of balance.

Days Twenty-four, Twenty-five, and Twenty-six

wow!

three days of not posting. crazy.

three days until i finish this 30 days in a row challenge. then i will continue through the month of october.

i realized this morning that i feel like i am neglecting my dog. silly as that sounds, and yes i know i'm obsessed with my dog, but he is home all day from 7:30AM to 7:30PM. then i go to practice again an hour later until 10:30/11PM. during the week my dog sees me about 5-7 hours. poor pinchi da vinci.

anyway, that is the downside to yoga apparently. having to fit it in the schedule without taking away from others. i have the worst time with that. i don't know how to balance my activities that i love to be with the people (or pet) that i care about.

3 days...maybe i'll have some sort of breakthrough of mental clarity. or not??? either way i will feel extremely accomplished for completing this goal and in the end actually liking it. :)

Day Twenty-Three

i am a big ball of tightness.

i feel worse today than i have in a while and i had to yoga at 5:45AM. i think i need more sleep.

it is so weird. i can see the benefits of yoga. there are times i can swing my arm around and my body feels great. then there are days like today where i feel fat, lethargic, tight, and in pain.

i have five more days to this challenge but i signed up for 30 more.

bikram says, "give me 60 days and i will change your body, your mind and your life". so i will give him 30 more days.

despite all of the feelings i have today i need to remember attitude has a lot to do with how i am feeling right now. and sleep deprivation. i do feel strong and proud when i leave a good class, when i am rested, and when i hold a pose for even one second longer than the day before. we all have bad days, i just need to remember that the good outweighs the bad.

i think the next 30 days i need to not just give over my physical body but really think about giving over my mindset...not to be a crazy yogi but to be open to the possibilities of bettering my body, mind and life.....

Day Twenty-Two

one more week!!!

up at 5:ish AM again to get my yoga in. it was very very hard to get outta bed and get moving. thank goodness i have had radio motivating me to wake up that early. i still hung out in savasana a lot today...dizzy, dizzy. i ended strong and awake-ish. :)

oddly feeling tighter this week than i have in a while. do i need to stretch more during the day to counter all the hot stretching i do in class?

that's weird.

oh well, gonna ice, heat and stretch to healing....

Day Twenty-One

always one day behind it seems...

so i lamented the other day about being sloppy in class when my favorite instructor was teaching and i got a redo yesterday!

huzzah!!!

i tried not to push my injury too hard but i wanted to show i could do some things. i did all of the poses and by the end my shoulder was back by my ear. i got a sorta limp tree going on but my tree pose is improving. i managed to lay all the way back on my fixed firm pose! i felt really good about class, even better than day eighteen...woah!

and even though she didn't say anything about my awesome progress, i like to think my favorite instructor was looking at me out of the corner of her eye thinking, "look at gogo improving over there, high five!".

yeah, she totally gave me a mental high five for working hard. :)

Day Twenty

yay!

twenty days of yoga!

boo to being a little bit back to square one. my shoulder is tense and not working but it felt a little better than it had the day before.

i made an appointment for a massage next weekend. work that knot out!!!

for now i keep lifting it and going forward without fear...ten more days till challenge victory!

i've really enjoyed these past 20 days. they have pushed me and motivated me, even when i didn't want to do anything but sleep.